Oh, the holidays.

I am so ready for my time off this Christmas, 12/15 - 12/26 (11 days!) it would be even better if I was staying at home living in sweat pants and husband tshirts!

12/14 (leaving PM) - 12/18

We are going to Arkansas..to see my inlaws. They are nice people, Im not close to them. I have spend a total of 8 days with them in nearly 2 years, about add 4 more days to that.  Last year when we went for Thanksgiving it had been 8 months since my miscarriage. I was obviously a mess since we should of had a newborn at the time of this visit and his Mom asked me why we hadnt gotten pregnant again.  I had no words. I just told her we were trying.
Its been over a year later we should have a 14 month old...and we still arent pregnant again. We are starting the journey of getting medical help to get pregnant. If she asks again I will have a really hard time giving her the short story.
"I think your son has low testoterone, he might also have low motility we need to do another semen analysis"
"I might have scar tissue and blockage, but we are holding off on a very expensive test, that insurance doesnt cover."
"OH and your son is alway too tired from work to have sex on my ovulating days, so we only really get to try every other month according to his work schedule."

...any other questions??

12/21 (leaving in the PM) - 12/25

We will be in Flower Mound with my Dad, Nana and her husband Bob. I cant wait, Jaimy really lucked out with his inlaw situation. My Dad is awesome and spoils us. My Dad doesnt pry, he would be thrilled to be grandfather...but also doesnt make me have anxiety attacks.

12/26

 back to work.

Cleaning Lady, YAY or NAY?

I pick:

Full-Time (because I have to.)

Great sex life. ;)

- I dont have Kids
- My non-kids dont have a busy schedule
- I do work fulltime the normal Monday through Friday grind 8 am - 5 pm.
- My husband has a VERY weird rotating schedule...I have come to terms he will never have normal M-F grind.
- When I'm off I dont wanna do more work, when my husband is off when I'm off I really dont wanna do more work.

Might as well get in the swing of things for when I do have kids.  I have decided to have a cleaning lady.  For the stuff I dont do normally (but would love to be done) and the stuff I hate doing but I dont live in a frat house, so it needs to be done!

- BATHROOMS (loathe, depsise, but I dont wanna live in a frat house)
- FLOORS/BASEBOARDS (floors - just barely-)(baseboards -never-)
- CEILING FANS (rarely)
- DUSTING (even more rare)

I dont even feel bad for wanting to hire someone to do this for me...I actually feel pretty good about it. I am stimulating the economy (CREATING JOBS)

Lady B

for PREZ

2016

 just kidding...

In all seriousness, I am kinda lazy and my husband is lazy too, we SUCK at keeping our house clean, but low and behold I love a clean house and would gladly pay a cleaning lady to come over 2x a month (maybe more, doubt it) to do the nit picky things that I loathe/never do!

However, I will not be hiring a lady until we live in a place worth having a cleaning lady. Or current place is awful..I dont even invite friends over. I dont ever want anyone to see our house trailer. I used the term "house" loosely.

Living in a "trailer" not my first choice. This was an evil experiment conducted by my husband wanted to try since he grew up in "manufactured home" and his parents live in one now. His hope was I would realize they are just as nice as a brick and mortar house (they are not). His experiment backfired! He realized he hates them too.  JUNE 30, 2013 CANNOT GET HERE FAST enough, our lease will be up and we can finish this demented experiment and move into a place that I dont hide from my friends and family.

I long for the day I have "theme"...

We are STILL waiting to hear back from Off Shore Oil Co.
Our good friend Keith who works for them(Keith's Dad does too) contacted some guy named Sean on J's behalf.
Then I emailed Sean "J" emailed Sean on Friday, I was hoping we  J would hear back yesterday or today...since he is home sick with a cold and back pain.

Either way, my husband really needs to find a new job, I know he just isnt happy. I am praying for him.

We have also put the babymaking stuff (Dr wise) on hold until we know more about J job wise.
If he gets on with OFO CO. we are moving to Forney!! to be closer to all my friends (including Krystal and Keith!

Which means both the insurances (his current work/my work) I am covered with will no longer be accessible to me. Since he wont work for the State and I probably wont work for my company unless they are..."OH NO! Dont leave us we love you bc you are superwoman!Just transfer to Dallas office! OH AND YES we will pay you more because we know you are gonna go crazy fighting that traffic daily!"

I just cant bring myself to move forward with Dr TTC knowing the end of the pregnancy wont be covered by insurance...would be sooo expensive!