Oh, the holidays.

I am so ready for my time off this Christmas, 12/15 - 12/26 (11 days!) it would be even better if I was staying at home living in sweat pants and husband tshirts!

12/14 (leaving PM) - 12/18

We are going to Arkansas..to see my inlaws. They are nice people, Im not close to them. I have spend a total of 8 days with them in nearly 2 years, about add 4 more days to that.  Last year when we went for Thanksgiving it had been 8 months since my miscarriage. I was obviously a mess since we should of had a newborn at the time of this visit and his Mom asked me why we hadnt gotten pregnant again.  I had no words. I just told her we were trying.
Its been over a year later we should have a 14 month old...and we still arent pregnant again. We are starting the journey of getting medical help to get pregnant. If she asks again I will have a really hard time giving her the short story.
"I think your son has low testoterone, he might also have low motility we need to do another semen analysis"
"I might have scar tissue and blockage, but we are holding off on a very expensive test, that insurance doesnt cover."
"OH and your son is alway too tired from work to have sex on my ovulating days, so we only really get to try every other month according to his work schedule."

...any other questions??

12/21 (leaving in the PM) - 12/25

We will be in Flower Mound with my Dad, Nana and her husband Bob. I cant wait, Jaimy really lucked out with his inlaw situation. My Dad is awesome and spoils us. My Dad doesnt pry, he would be thrilled to be grandfather...but also doesnt make me have anxiety attacks.

12/26

 back to work.

Cleaning Lady, YAY or NAY?

I pick:

Full-Time (because I have to.)

Great sex life. ;)

- I dont have Kids
- My non-kids dont have a busy schedule
- I do work fulltime the normal Monday through Friday grind 8 am - 5 pm.
- My husband has a VERY weird rotating schedule...I have come to terms he will never have normal M-F grind.
- When I'm off I dont wanna do more work, when my husband is off when I'm off I really dont wanna do more work.

Might as well get in the swing of things for when I do have kids.  I have decided to have a cleaning lady.  For the stuff I dont do normally (but would love to be done) and the stuff I hate doing but I dont live in a frat house, so it needs to be done!

- BATHROOMS (loathe, depsise, but I dont wanna live in a frat house)
- FLOORS/BASEBOARDS (floors - just barely-)(baseboards -never-)
- CEILING FANS (rarely)
- DUSTING (even more rare)

I dont even feel bad for wanting to hire someone to do this for me...I actually feel pretty good about it. I am stimulating the economy (CREATING JOBS)

Lady B

for PREZ

2016

 just kidding...

In all seriousness, I am kinda lazy and my husband is lazy too, we SUCK at keeping our house clean, but low and behold I love a clean house and would gladly pay a cleaning lady to come over 2x a month (maybe more, doubt it) to do the nit picky things that I loathe/never do!

However, I will not be hiring a lady until we live in a place worth having a cleaning lady. Or current place is awful..I dont even invite friends over. I dont ever want anyone to see our house trailer. I used the term "house" loosely.

Living in a "trailer" not my first choice. This was an evil experiment conducted by my husband wanted to try since he grew up in "manufactured home" and his parents live in one now. His hope was I would realize they are just as nice as a brick and mortar house (they are not). His experiment backfired! He realized he hates them too.  JUNE 30, 2013 CANNOT GET HERE FAST enough, our lease will be up and we can finish this demented experiment and move into a place that I dont hide from my friends and family.

I long for the day I have "theme"...

We are STILL waiting to hear back from Off Shore Oil Co.
Our good friend Keith who works for them(Keith's Dad does too) contacted some guy named Sean on J's behalf.
Then I emailed Sean "J" emailed Sean on Friday, I was hoping we  J would hear back yesterday or today...since he is home sick with a cold and back pain.

Either way, my husband really needs to find a new job, I know he just isnt happy. I am praying for him.

We have also put the babymaking stuff (Dr wise) on hold until we know more about J job wise.
If he gets on with OFO CO. we are moving to Forney!! to be closer to all my friends (including Krystal and Keith!

Which means both the insurances (his current work/my work) I am covered with will no longer be accessible to me. Since he wont work for the State and I probably wont work for my company unless they are..."OH NO! Dont leave us we love you bc you are superwoman!Just transfer to Dallas office! OH AND YES we will pay you more because we know you are gonna go crazy fighting that traffic daily!"

I just cant bring myself to move forward with Dr TTC knowing the end of the pregnancy wont be covered by insurance...would be sooo expensive!

All over the place

Start with J...
He took the Tyler PD test a month and kinda bombed it, I felt like he didnt do well on purpose to get hired on with this Off-Shore Oil Compnay our friend works for.  Well we submitted his resume to the open position at this company. It now he isnt actively pursuing the position, to my satisfaction anyways. He is going to a few local job fairs, hopefully something will pan out.  He just isnt happy with his current job and makes so little we are living a little better than paycheck to paycheck...but not by much.

Secondly,
Work I love my job, but sometimes o-m-gee I wanna retire.

Thirdly,
J dropped off his "speciman" and I kinda thought we would be contacted...we havent been. I'm annoyed.

Fourthly,
I dunno I'm just irritated.

PAUL RYAN 2016!

Here's hoping.

I'm not a fan of Obama, I do not feel that he was the best choice for our Country. I am PETRIFIED of what will happen over the next 4 years.

I have a real problem with paying for degenerates. I have NO problem helping those in need, but my idea of helping those in needs is"Give a man a fish and he will eat for a day, teach a man to fish and he will eat for a life time." Essentially I am tired of giving away my fish (Money). We need to teach our Country to fish again, we have become WAY TOO COMFORTABLE with relying on others to provide for us!

AMERICA, we are the GREAT NATION, we came from ENGLAND/SPAIN/FRANCE and everywhere else and settled this Country with HARDWORK! SO GET UP AND WORK HARD!

We should not have to suffer as Americans bc I work, my husband works, we have health insurance through our jobs BECAUSE WE WORK!

Yet we are punished for doing what is expected? Those who wont do what it takes to be contributing  members of society are rewarded??

I am so angry, I am praying for grace and peace.

It's all fun and games.....until

So I had my yearly Lady Doctor visit....
We are now essentially in the Assisted/Actively TTC stage. All I can think is, "why in the world did I spend sooo MUCH time/energy in preventing getting pregnant??" Apparently I didnt need to prevent it on my own...my body is doing that hard work for me...ha. 

My cousin made the best A-A/TCC (yes I just made an acronym) joke...she and her husband had fertility issues too.  Both of husbands have a hard time taking A/TTC seriously.
For example:
My husband is all we can do it when we want and it'll happen eventually.
I'm all...well dear we have been "doing it" for a year and half and not a damn nothing has happened.
"It's all fun and games until someone has to jack off in a cup" - Cousin Misty
We (she and I) (J did not find it humorous that I was discussing these details with Misty) laughed too much at that one.

Anywho...when my next monthy comes I have to call the OBGYN for a HSG test, and J has to collect his speciman.

My bff M thinks it is super weird that we old enough for it to be finally be "ok" to get pregnant, even weirder that we are old enough for us to be "TTC", beyond weird that are at the phase where are seeking assistance with TTC.

The cutest little house, we will never live in.

     

 



Shed

Living Room

  

Dining/Kitchen from Living



Master Bedroom





Guest Room



 

 

I know God has bigger and better plans for us!

Mr. and Mrs Double F, and then some.

My name is Heather, 27, recently located to East Texas (Tyler) from DFW
  major change in pace right there!!

My husband is former ARMY, currently a Corrections Office for the GREAT State of Texas. Yup he is a prison guard. He isnt a fan that particular job. He is currently pursuing a job working for an Off Shore Oil-Rig company.  After he talked to K's fiance, he really thinks this the route for him.

I like to think my life falls in this order...
1.  Christian-
God works with me on a daily basis, I make mistakes...I have made HUGE ones! Yet, God still loves me forgives me and works in my life!
2. Wife -
This is not our first marriage for me or my husband, he will be called J. We have been married for nearly 2 years. Our anniversay is March 21.
We are officially ACTIVELY TTC...google it...its time consuming!

I am on my second marriage. I orignally married my highschool sweetheart after surviving 5-6 year relationship we thought we ready for that next step. It exploded into big ol' mess of craptastic in a matter of almost 6 whole months (that ladies and gentlemen, takes skill, just kidding).

Hubs is on his 3rd marriage, he was married for a short time at the age of 18...ha yea, that was gonna work (sorry hun...)
He tried again in 2004, lucky for me that chick couldn't handle being an ARMY wife.

3.  Daughter -
I have the worlds most amazing Dad!
4. Mother to fur-children -
We have a dog, Monty and 2 cats, Maddie and Sooki. All great little creatures, however we desperately want REAL children!
5. Friend -
I have amazing friends, as an only child my friends are the women I chose to be my sisters, oh BTW they will probably be mentioned ALOT!
K. - shes happily engaged to a K(eith), has a 3 year old little boy from her previous marriage, and I have known her since 6th grade (age 12, yes thats a 15 year friendship)
M. - she is happily married to another K(yle), unhappily living in Mississippi, I have known her since 9th grade (age 15, yes, thats a 12 year friendship)
S. - mildly happy with her live in boyfriend, in DFW...I havent known her long...almost a year, stilla amazing lady.
 6. Full-time Employee -
I work for a great CAUSE, I work with great ladies in a small office...this is a recipe for drama...


Unfortunately, my life is usually...
1. Christian
2. Work
3. Fur-Children
4. Wife
5. Friend
6. Daughter

Explanation of our TITLE:
 The Double F Life
*  My maiden name has 2 F's
*  My married last name has 2 F's
*  My first marriage had no F's in the last name, it failed miserbly.
*  Therefore I obviously love the Double F.

A little forsight of what this blog will be about:
This is about 2 people who know what it takes that wont make a marriage work...and we kinda trial and error on what will. When we figure it out, we will write a book and be rich ;)

We are actively trying to get pregnant. I temp, monitor, baby dancing as often as possible, praying for God's will be our desire to have children.